Into the Darkness

Renee is a dark beautiful creature. She knows of a place where mystical creatures frolic and dance in the moonlit shadows. There is boundless compassion in her heart, and she is selfless. Renee is the kindest most gentle woman I have ever known. You wouldn’t have to take my word for it because everyone who knows her agrees. Renee refers to herself as a dark creature. Initially I mistakenly assumed it meant goth or emo. In other words, I would hear the term dark and associate it with an identity. That was a false assumption on my part because she is so much more than that. Renee represents the ultimate Darkness. She is a living Goddess in biological form, and it’s measurable, both human and eternal meaning that she has an intimate grasp of her own personal Divinity.

Renee combines mystical wisdom with common sense. This is what she does, and she does it with everyone she encounters. Renee is a gifted healer with a limitless ability to reflect kindness. She has a knack for revealing the love that lies dormant within most creatures. As a result, she coaxes out the beauty in all that she meets. This is ironic because most people tend to associate darkness with evil. She explained to me (as I came to grips with her true essence) that if you approach darkness and falsely assume it’s evil, then you will be rewarded with fear. On the other hand, if you hold kindness in your heart, then you will find it returned to you three-fold. “Darkness only gives you what you ask for,” Renee often explains.

Using myself as an example I can recall a time when I was truly lost. I am a fire creature, and as such, I loathed the darkness! This meant that Renee and I were bound to have some major compatibility issues. I was conditioned into believing that darkness was a representation of evil and nothing more. Renee intuitively asked me to join her in the calm darkness, but I vehemently refused. It was an unspoken invitation at first because I was so volatile. I was burning too bright.

When I realized that Renee represented the darkness, I conjured the souls of legions in an attempt to vanquish the perceived threat. In my mind it was incumbent upon me to rid the world of suffering. I mistakenly believed my wife was evil incarnate. Metaphysically speaking, I attempted to destroy her because I incorrectly associated darkness with terror. I failed to realize that it was me who was perpetuating the carnage. Renee, in her darkness, stood firm as she silently presented my own reflection back to me.

This was an especially difficult time for Renee because I perceived her as being a representation of Satan. Because of my skewed personal associations, I engaged in a one-man crusade to eradicate evil. Renee was unwavering and unshaken. She held steadfast against the brunt of my onslaught. She explained to me that I unwittingly gave away my power by carrying on this way. She would calmly say to me repeatedly, “I don’t want your power.” Eventually I came to know Renee as the darkness while simultaneously coming to grips with my own light. She taught me how to see her by showing me how to see myself.

Finally, it dawned on me that we have no enemies in darkness. I learned there is nothing to be afraid of. Over time I learned to evaluate what the concept of evil meant to me, which is doing intentional harm. Initially I viewed the darkness as something to be vanquished, so I engaged in a one-sided battle which lasted more than a year. I am fire and I represent the light. Because of this I mistakenly believed that darkness was to be destroyed at all costs. I was the evil one in this equation. That’s how it was for us back in 2017. I was a raging fire monster, and in my quest to eliminate darkness, I nearly ruined everything that I now hold dear.

Since then, I have learned to co-exist. Light cannot exist without darkness, and there can be no darkness without a contrasting light. The takeaway point is that goodness exists in darkness just as evil presents itself in the light. An enchanted realm exists where darkness collides with light only to explode into a crescendo of brilliantly harmonious colors! It’s a place where dark and light creatures can cohabitate in peaceful unity.

These are things that I’ve learned from Renee. I have learned that safety exists in darkness as well as in the light. Our days are now spent in quiet solitude as we contemplate our existence and what life has to offer. I would not be the man I am today without the undying love that was perpetually showered upon me by this beautiful dark creature. She is my love and inspiration. She is the ultimate healer. Renee represents the beckoning hope flower that resides at the bottom of Pandora’s Box!